I don't know what to do...


I don’t know what to do….

Sometimes writing comes very easy to me. And there are times like today when it doesn’t.

I just don’t know what to do.

We got some not so good health news today.

And I don’t know what to do.

I have a 4 year old and a 3 year old at home missing their daddy.

And I don’t know what to do.

I am looking at my husband sitting in a hospital bed

And I don’t know what to do.

I don’t know. I am a planner. I am a thinker. I am an organizer. I am always on top of every responsibility.

But I don’t know what to do.

I don’t know if I am supposed to go left or if I am supposed to go right.

I just don’t know….

I have absolutely always hated not knowing. I like to have everything lined up with my nice little to-do lists. I like to know.

But I don’t know what to do…

But then God whispers, “I have not asked you to figure this out on your own. I have not asked you to drive the car you are in. I have not asked you….But I have asked you to trust in me with your whole heart. I have asked you not to lean to your own understanding. I have asked you to call upon me when you are weary and I have declared that I will give you rest. I have asked you to pray. I have asked you be strong. I have asked you to be courageous. I have said that I will never forsake you. I have asked you to believe that my ways are higher than your ways. I have asked you to believe that those who wait on me will have their strength renewed. I have asked you not to grow weary in well doing because in due season you will reap. I have asked you to believe that every day of your life has already been ordained by me. But I have never asked for you to figure it out on your own.”

And so while I don’t know, God knows.
We are not expected to figure things out. God is in control. And so I will stop trying to figure things out and just let God...

 Every Sunday we take an "off to church picture." This road we take is going to be a difficult one, but I am glad that we have Jesus by our side!

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