God is still in control

On December 30, 2014 my husband was diagnosed with cancer. He was 29 at the time and our son was 4 and daughter 3. In the matter of minutes our world was turned upside down. During 2015 my husband was hospitalized 10 times. He endured 8 cycles of chemotherapy each cycle requiring a two week hospital stay. He required platelet and blood transfusions and his WBC would get so low that if acquiring a simple cold was incredibly dangerous.We were reduced to one income. Many nights my children would ask me why their dad was sick.

It was the most difficult year. My heart broke as I saw my husband hooked up to IV's that were dripping chemo into his body. There were days I felt like I was crawling towards the finish line. Many days I put a smile on my face for others to see but I was broken inside. Our plans had been shattered. Our life completely changed. And I wondered why us? Why my husband? Why did my children have to endure separation from their dad? At times the pain was unbearable. Nights were consumed with tears. There were times when I had no words to pray. Times when I felt like I couldn't take another step.

But I held on to God. I clung to His promises. When the words couldn't come, I offered my tears as prayers. And He saw us through.

He healed.
He provided.
He gave us peace.
He surrounded us with comfort.
He clothed us with strength.
He helped us endure the biggest storm we ever faced.

He loved us.
He spoke to us.
He encouraged us.
He wrapped His arms around us.
He saw us through. He got us to the other side.

When I write these blogs I don't desire millions to read them. I am not writing them with the purpose that a blog post goes viral. I am writing for the one.

So for the one who is hurting may I encourage you that God sees you pain.
For the one who feels invisible God knows your name.
For the one who is mourning, God will comfort you.
For the one who lacks direction, God will guide you.
For the one whose plans have been uprooted, God is in control.
For the one who is enduring the most difficult storm, God will see you through.

This chapter of your life may produce tears. It may hurt. It may be one that you want to end so badly, but God will get you to other side. He has not abandoned you. He has not forgotten you.

So for the one whose world has turned upside down you will make it because God is still in control.

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